Pregnancy Diary #2

This morning, I received a text from a friend I made at my breastfeeding class. She had her baby! And we were due the same week! How crazy is that!?

Despite being born a few weeks earlier than expected, she and her baby are happy and healthy. They are hoping to be home by the end of the week. Isn’t that incredible? We were due the same week, and her baby is out in the world, learning to feed, breathe, and live on her own.

I guess I shouldn’t be so surprised. The goal of the last 9 months has been to grow a healthy happy baby. At the same time, I can’t believe it’s real. It feels incredible that in the next few weeks, I will become a mom. I will have a baby to take home and love. The rest of my life will be changed. I keep wondering what it will feel like to walk through our front door, Michael holding our baby. I will probably be exhausted. Will we take a nap or will baby need my full attention? Are we allowed to put on the TV or is that far too unceremoniously for such an occasion? Baby’s first day at home.

Until two weeks ago, giving birth felt very far away. Then, the hot weather hit. Temperatures soared at the same time that baby decided he was no longer just a big potato in my stomach. The heat has made my fingers puffy and my skin glisten. My belly feels huge. Baby has become much more responsive, especially when Michael lies his head on my stomach and plays with baby in the morning. It often feels like he’s wiggling around, trying to get comfortable.

Today has been a funny day. After receiving that text, I’ve spiraled into daydreams of baby being here in my arms. In some ways it feels like baby will be here so soon, and in some it feels impossible to wait another day. I can’t wait to meet you.

Love,

your mom,

Kristen Mary Carolan

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