Pregnancy Diary #1

I have been yawning a lot this evening. I didn’t quite notice it until I sat down to write this. I started daydreaming about what I’d like to share about my current state. I feel happy and calm—and tired. That’s what I would like you to know.

The sun just disappeared behind the skyline, and I am showered and cozy in pajamas in the corner of my couch. Recently, it takes quite the pillow fortress to keep me sitting perfectly upright where I am comfortable and baby is not squishing me.

Yesterday was a big day for me. It was my last day of work until September. Baby is due in 34 days, and it is time to rest and get ready for their arrival.

Michael and I met up after work, and he congratulated me as I told him about my lovely day. My coworkers threw me a party, and I felt really proud of the way my last few months of work went. Michael teased me and asked what it felt like to be a full-time stay at home mom now. It feels great.

I am excited for this next chapter of my life. By the time Thursday rolls around, I will be full term. Baby will be a full baby, fit to survive out here on their own. I always knew I wanted to be a mom, but now the time is here. My friend at work told me that when you become a mom, you become a new person. She told me that it’s funny looking back on the person that she was before her kids. I wonder who I will become.

I hear a lot of moms worrying about “losing themselves”, but I can’t wait to meet this woman I’m going to become. Michael asked me if finishing work felt bittersweet, and although I love my job, it didn’t. It feels all sweet.

I feel ready.

Now I just need baby (and a fitted sheet for the bassinet).

With love,

Kristen Mary Carolan

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